By the Ocean
Sunny 77 Degrees
6:38 a.m.
I never finished college.
I did all the coursework. Got all A’s. For the entire four years.
But I’m a single, one-hour, music recital away from finishing.
And I’m never going to do it.
I didn’t want to do it then. I don’t want to do it now.
All of that time and money “wasted,” according to the Matrix.
But that’s not how I see it. Because I gave up believing the Matrix.
Just like the mainstream medical complex and their opinions on “health.” I don’t believe any of them. They are either liars or just stupid. I’m not sure which is worse.
I didn’t waste money going to college. I found a wife who is the mother of my 10 children and my partner on a magical adventure through reality that I wouldn’t trade for anything.
I figure $100K was a bargain.
The rest, I could forget. Because I’m not even sure I wanted to be there. I’m not even sure that was my dream. I know it was my path, I’m just not sure it was my dream.
Because I had allowed my dreams to be co-opted, influenced, and manipulated long before those years.
It started back when I was 5 or 6 and loved watching a cartoon about a rich kid called, “Richie Rich.” That’s who I wanted to be. He was wealthy, nice, helpful and positive. Seems like a good mix!
But then I was told that rich people are greedy and that they are going to hell to burn for all eternity and that anyone who aspires to be like that needs Jesus.
That kind of kills the dream in a 5 year old.
After that, I was a little more quiet about my dreams. Eventually, I stopped having any.
That’s when I started living as a reaction to the world. I wouldn’t recommend this because you feel like a slave and a puppet of a force you can’t even see, find or yell at.
But you know it owns you. Because every day is the same: you just react and try to keep up.
You realize SOMETHING is living your life and it’s not you.
The way out is to stand up.
The way out is to reconnect with that unique vibration that is inside you.
The way out is to embrace every aspect of who and how you are.
The way out is to develop a new habit of living from the inside out instead of the other way around.
Being rich is not a problem. Being you is not a problem either.
Ignore what the Matrix tells you about the dreams you have inside.
They are there for a reason.